Awkward - maybe, but why succumb?
I had to call my former employer today, and it was awkward. I had checked my 401k and noticed deposits well after my final paycheck, and I did not want the issue to be ignored or unresolved. I also did not want their precious funds inadvertently contributed to my retirement, as I no longer earn that money.
"Ah, I am going to have to call the Administrative Assistant," I sighed when I saw the deposits. You see - I feel so unwanted by the organization, that even the idea of calling was saddening and stressful.
I had hoped to leave on good terms and as an ally, but that did not really happen. There are unaddressed 'hard' feelings on both sides, and no desire to resolve or acknowledge them. Sever and move on was the ending, which was not really surprising, as communication styles and a lack of respect were the catalyst for my departure.
The call went fine, and awkwardly. No need for fixing, as the deposits reflected my final remuneration and were just delayed on the retirement account end (not the employer send).
I reflected on how disappointing the whole situation is. I will not succumb to feeling devalued. They may have no interest in, acknowledgement of, need of, or respect for me, but I know I am interesting, valuable, capable and worthy of respect. I know I added much to the organization (and things I set up are still happening). So, let go of the negativity. Move through the grief. Navigate with grace the stress of transition. Trust the universe - that is what I do accept, and do practice.
"Ah, I am going to have to call the Administrative Assistant," I sighed when I saw the deposits. You see - I feel so unwanted by the organization, that even the idea of calling was saddening and stressful.
I had hoped to leave on good terms and as an ally, but that did not really happen. There are unaddressed 'hard' feelings on both sides, and no desire to resolve or acknowledge them. Sever and move on was the ending, which was not really surprising, as communication styles and a lack of respect were the catalyst for my departure.
The call went fine, and awkwardly. No need for fixing, as the deposits reflected my final remuneration and were just delayed on the retirement account end (not the employer send).
I reflected on how disappointing the whole situation is. I will not succumb to feeling devalued. They may have no interest in, acknowledgement of, need of, or respect for me, but I know I am interesting, valuable, capable and worthy of respect. I know I added much to the organization (and things I set up are still happening). So, let go of the negativity. Move through the grief. Navigate with grace the stress of transition. Trust the universe - that is what I do accept, and do practice.
Now, Oct. 2017 - a full year later, I am finally over the angst. I still maintain a distance - physical and emotional - to the organization its properties and the people involved.
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